The Attack

I haven't been attacked by the man that loves me so he says for a long time, since 2003 when he bit my nose and choked me.
This time we had the best time ever at a wedding the night before.
We were sitting talking the next day and then I said the wrong thing.
I was mad, so I just went to my room and slammed the door, end of that dumb conversation.
But he ran into the bedroom and started or continued the bull shit, it was his time of the month to explode. He started yelling about me taking a picture of the asshole with one of the cameras that were on the table at the wedding, screaming he said "When I tell you something you better fucken listen to me,
and when I say I do not want to dance to some dumb song, you just better listen to me.
Then attack and squeezed my face with both of these great big hands and smashed my glasses into my face, he also hurt my wrist so bad I thought it was broken.
I just could not believe that he actually did that, I still cannot. I was so scared, how could someone that you have lived with 30 years and professes love ,do such a horrible thing. That was all about control and power over me, the boss.
This is the most horrible time in my whole life. I have been verbally abused, sexually abused, physically abused now one more time. So what does this mean, we are done, I am scared to be around that bastard. I told him to get out but he will not do it. I just don't know any more. Is this my life, for ever.

Am I going to end up dead like so many women do.

Now I could report all this to the police, but would they help??
I just wish he would leave. This is all so stupid isn't it??
Now my life will totally change because of the hundredth flip out , which is not a bad thing for sure.
It is just getting him out with out a big freak out and trouble.

Now I have had to go to the Doctor 3 times, have xrays on my arm since I was sure it was broken, go to get my glasses fixed 4 times and they are still screwed up. All because of some one getting mad over nothing.

I wish he would just leave and I could get a life, I have been alone for many years.

Pray for me and so many other women that live like this year after year.